Journey - Month 12 - December 2009

picture taken in downtown disney last week

1. What I had for lunch today: turkey, ham, cheese sand on wheat, baked lays, diet dew
2. Something I apologized for: maybe breaking the garbage can but it turned out that i didn't :)
3. The last person I thanked: emma for helping me put something away ( i used a task as a distraction to stop her from whining/crying - gawd, i'm getting tired of the whining LOL)
4. The last movie I watched: Taken, very good - suspenseful movie
5. My favorite song right now: i've gotta feeling by the black eyed peas
6. Where I ate out last: Denny's, Orlando
7. What I'm wearing right now: mikes boxer briefs, maine tshirt
8. What made me laugh: Emma and the things she says, the other morning i asked her if she messed up the tv, knowing that the satellite was just resetting itself, and she said, "i didn't do anything" so innocently and it just made me smile
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: my sister, big surprise i know :)
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: the kids - hoping they sleep thru the night

Journey - Month 11 - November 2009

1. What I had for lunch today: pork chop, mashed potato, peas, apple slices
2. Something I apologized for: mike for univiting him to orlando to visit rosie in december
3. The last person I thanked: Chara for faxing something for me
4. The last movie I watched: UP!!!
5. My favorite song right now: i gotta feeling by the black eyed peas
6. Where I ate out last: Nick's school for Thanksgiving luncheon
7. What I'm wearing right now: jean capris, green work polo, flip flops
8. What made me laugh: my sister on the phone carrying on about how she has to pee and is hitting bumps but needs a drink of water at the same time...
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: my sister about her carrie underwood haircut
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: all the people i'm not buying gifts for this year...we just dont have the money...

Journey - Month 10 - October 2009

picture is from the 13th but answers are from the 26th...i'm a few days late - sue me :)
1. What I had for lunch today: smartones meatloaf w/mashed pot, carrots, granny smith w/peanut butter
2. Something I apologized for: chara for interrupting her while on the phone
3. The last person I thanked: chara for ordering a new dated stamp for me for work
4. The last movie I watched: couples retreat
5. My favorite song right now: don't really have one, i'm listening to same stuff from ipod for running
6. Where I ate out last: vicky's house for potluck bunco
7. What I'm wearing right now: jean capris, blue work polo, brown flip flops
8. What made me laugh: seeing emma dragging the wagon with all our pumpkins in it
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: kara making plans to go running tonight w/elissa
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: mike, hoping he remembers it is his night to pick up the kids

Journey - Month 9 - Sept 09

1. What I had for lunch today: healthy choice sweet/sour spicy chix, cheese, grapes
2. Something I apologized for: mike for calling him 3 or 4 times this morning to give me info from the computer table
3. The last person I thanked: the sales guy at fit2run for helping me get shoes/socks for my training
4. The last movie I watched: both sisterhood of the traveling pants movies
5. My favorite song right now: boom boom pow by the black eyed peas
6. Where I ate out last: Chili's
7. What I'm wearing right now: jean capris, pink work polo, black flip flops
8. What made me laugh: emma's messed up haircut but not in a good way
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: my sister sarah
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: me - really feel good about writing down my training plan on a calendar and am looking forward to the challenge of sticking to it for the 1/2 marathon in january

Journey - Month 8 - Aug 09

Today - 8/17/09
1. What I had for lunch today: healthy choice pot roast, cuke w/balsamic vinager
2. Something I apologized for: to mike for forgetting to the pot roast in the crock pot this morning for dinner - duh....
3. The last person I thanked: Sarah for her opinion on birthday party things...
4. The last movie I watched: The Ugly Truth
5. My favorite song right now: halo by beyonce
6. Where I ate out last: fon shan's take out
7. What I'm wearing right now: mike's boxer briefs, turquoise tank top
8. What made me laugh: emma screaming at the top of her lungs for mike who was putting the garbage out
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: mike saying i was in the driveway :)
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: mike asleep on the couch, should i try to wake him and get him up to bed when i go???

another kid....another night of interrupted sleep

okay so i'm racking my brain trying to remember when nick started this waking up in the middle of the night horseshit...emma has been doing it for about 2 weeks now where she will wake up and cry for us to come to her...if we go to comfort her by rubbing her back or quietly reassuring her that we are just in the other room sleeping she calms down....BUT the second we start to walk away from her crib she starts SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF....i don't mean just regular crying, i mean screaming bloody murder....we know it is a control thing and she just wants us to stay with her but i just don't think it is a good thing to get started in that "bad" habit....i remember clearly laying/sleeping on nick's floor when he was still in his crib before we had the bunk beds in his room, just to get him to stop crying.....i CAN'T do that again....i'm at my wits end because i don't want to give emma different treatment but isn't that parenthood? learning from your past experiences/mistakes????

i just wish she would have continued being the model sleeper
regular night time routine of play, dinner, tub, jammies, books/play, snuggle in our bed w/tv or in the glider in her room in the dark, "emma you ready for your crib?" "yes mommy, my bed", put her to bed, she rubs her feet along the sheet and snuggles into her mattress with her taggie blankets by her face, holding the green tag, sleep thru the night and call/cry to us in the morning around 6am....ohhhhhh what i wouldn't give to go back to that.....we jinxed ourselves by complaining about her "early" awakening at 6am....ohhhhhh to go back to being able to sleep all night and get up at 6AM....

oh and on top of the issues with emma's sleeping changes, nick is getting up at least once a night to come get me to take him to go pee....i'm getting like 4-5 hours of sleep a night....

a rant of sorts....Toddlers & Tiaras

i have already posted about this on facebook and gone "off" on my husband about it, but i just don't seem to be able to let it go......
there is this stupid show on TLC that just started it's second season called Toddlers and Tiaras and i for the life of me can not understand HOW/WHY the programming on this show is allowed on television let alone HOW/WHY these stupid parents are allowed to put their kids/daughters in this crap they call Pageant work....
i do not understand how a grown adult could dress their child like a stripper, hooker, whore, with a face full of makeup and hair up to the skies with trampy slutty outfits on doing sexy dance moves on a stage for a freakin tiara/crown/prize...
I JUST DO NOT GET IT!!!!
it infuriates me more and more even as i type this post....what are they thinking??? these girls look sooooooo awful and they could be soooo beautiful if they would be able to just grow, develop and be kids....4 year olds wearing more makeup and hairspray than i have ever even put on my face/hair in my 36+ years.....
AWFUL...
okay i'm done, i'll let it go...i just dont get it and that is what bothers me the most...

Journey - Month 7 - July 09

Today - 7/14/09
1. What I had for lunch today: lean cuisine lasagna, salad w/lt italian dressing, fruit salad (watermelon, blueberries, strawberries)
2. Something I apologized for: to mike for being home so late last night from the mall with the kids (haircuts, new shoes and dinner for them brought us home way past 830 which made our dinner after 9 once they were in bed)
3. The last person I thanked: mike for making dinner tonight
4. The last movie I watched: Horton Hears a Who
5. My favorite song right now: the climb by miley cyrus
6. Where I ate out last: fon shaun's take out
7. What I'm wearing right now: dark grey exercise pants, race for the cure tshirt (heading on the treadmill)
8. What made me laugh: emma climbing in the back window of mike's car while i was moving and readjusting his car seats
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: mike saying i was on my way to get nick
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: me, get on the treadmill girlie, get off the computer...

the climb.....

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,
cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Somebody you're going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It’s all about
It’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Whoaaa Ohwaoooh

Journey - Month 6 - June 09

Today - 6/14/09
1. What I had for lunch today: chix salad w/grapes, apples & shredded carrots over lettuce, baked bbq lays
2. Something I apologized for: gonna apologize to mike when i get downstairs for taking so long
3. The last person I thanked: mom and jim for watching the kids so i could go exercise
4. The last movie I watched: Bolt
5. My favorite song right now: halo still by beyonce
6. Where I ate out last: we had rosalita's tex mex last night (it was takeout)
7. What I'm wearing right now: black exercise pants, grey tshirt
8. What made me laugh: my kids, i can't think of a specific thing that was the most recent event but i laugh with them every day
9. The last person I spoke to on the phone: mike telling him i was on my way home with the kids from mom's after exercising
10. Someone I'm thinking of right now: me, can i really commit to 5 days of exercise this week and can i write down all my food and make the right choices AGAIN????????