Family Picture

okay well here is a picture of my lovely little family from July 4th....

1st weekend away coming up...

Okay, well here's the thing....my kid is almost 2 and my husband and i have yet to spend a night alone away from him (mike has been away 2-3 times on sailing races, but i have never left my baby, not even with daddy)

We have planned a weekend away in naples staying at a luxury boutique style hotel on the main drag.....we are going to do dinners, walks to the beach, maybe a carriage ride if they have them, i might get a massage while mike finds something to do.....my point is we will be completely childless.....i'm nervous being without nicholas for 2 whole day and nights but he will be fine at my mom's for the weekend.....

i'm sure it will be weird at first not having him with us, but i think we will get used to the idea and really enjoy our time alone together....i'm looking forward to it.....

i've been told, the more times you do it, the easier it gets.....woooohooooo....better take advantage of the time we have now to get away when we only have the one kid, next year when there are two, i'm not so sure the grandparents will be soooo eager and willing to take them....

Pictures of Nicholas-Fort Edgecomb

okay well it has been a month since i have posted but alot has happened in that time.....we went to maine for 10 days on vacation to visit my dad and family...when we returned our home computer was not working (still not working, but don't get me started) so i haven't really had the time to sit down and do my blog....to top it all off i haven't even had a chance to upload our vacation pictures to the computer to sort through, order and send out by email to family....i decided to attach a few to my blog that i saved on a thumb drive while on vacation...i still have almost 700 in my camera and on my memory card i need to go through....anyway, here are pictures of nicholas on our vacation...

Nicholas looking out of the window at Fort Edgecomb

















Family Pic at Fort Edegcomb


What do you see??? I think he was looking for a moth or butterfly...


Look at this big boy, just walking along all by himself....

Woooohoooo!!!

just wanted to post my great weigh-in this week...i'm down another 4.8lbs and i am at 47.6lbs total, which might as well be 50........i feel great and am actually looking forward to going on vacation this week and staying on program the best i can without jenny craig foods...i will have a loss when i return on 7/3 to jenny craig after being gone 2 weeks...grilled fish, grilled chix, lots of veggies, salads and fruit....i will stay on program and i will do GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!when i come back i will be down at least 50lbs....1/2 way to my goal and even closer to getting ready to become preggers again...need to be down at least 70-75 total before we start trying....i really want to be a somewhat healthy weight this time...get off bp meds and have a good healthy pregnancy (although we didn't really have any problems last time except i gained 35lbs and got up to 260lbs by the time i delivered - i guess i would call that a problem, ha-ha)

not this time...i will be very much under 200 and aim to stay under the whole time i'm preggers.....no need to gain weight since i'll still have some to spare for the baby....

anyway, just wanted to rejoice in my loss...tried on my 24 shorts tonight....holy crap are they big....going to take some pics on july 3rd at jenny craig to show my loss in print.....keep me going....

pictures...

how can it be so hard to keep up with pictures??? i realized yesterday that i have not printed or put into albums one picture since nicholas' 1st birthday in sept 05....almost 9 months ago....holy crap...i have tons of pics in my computer but just have not sat down and sorted through them and sent them out for printing....i must must must do this before the middle of july...set a goal and stick to it.....

New words....

everyday i am amazed by the number of words my kid knows....he will say a word and it takes me a minute to comprehend that he just said something new....saturday we went to lily's prek graduation at a high school auditorium...needless to say, nicholas did not want to sit through the whole ceremony...we let him run up and down the stairs in the dark auditorium....mike chased after him one time when he got to the top and over to the other side....he grabbed him as he went down a row....as he was carrying him back to where we had the stroller, nicholas was yelling/crying out, "myshoe, myshoe" we thought he was saying "juice, juice" since he had been running for so long he must be thirsty...as mike got closer i realized i could see a socked foot and that he was saying, "i lost my shoe, my shoe, my shoe." what a smart friggin kid...mike took him back to the row and there it was stuck in between one of the seats and the next row....what a silly kid....he knew what was up and he tried sooo hard to tell us...thank goodness mommy "speaks" kid language or who knows what would have happened to the missing shoe....i just keep listening and my heart hurts and my eyes tear each time i hear him say a new word....i love it....i think i love it more than watching him sleep....

Friends

i have been in florida for almost 10 years now and am very happy i have been able to expand my circle of friends since i had nicholas.....i joined a mom's group from yahoo of local moms when nicholas was about 2 1/2 months old....one of the members was a neighbor of mine and invited me to join this group called Angelplay....as the last 18 months have passed many members have come and gone and i haven't really had a chance to get to know them....a few have left the area with their families for new starts....some have left because they never felt like they belonged....some have left due to conflict......and the core few that i call my friends have stuck around.....i'm very fortunate to have Brooke, Kara, Deborah and Melissa in my life....i wish i talked to kelly more since we have boys the same age, but she doesn't seem to be around much....i feel like some of the mom's just don't know how to make time for their friends.....i'm always open to meeting new people and would love to expand my circe more....get to know some more great women that i can call friends...this group that i am in has been a life saver for me since i have family here but no friends from work since i work in a small office, no friends from when i was a teacher (lost contact with them all except one who i catch up with every 6 months or so).....i guess the point of my post is to say that i am very happy i found this group of great women and i know that i consider them all friends.....

Slacker or just a busy mom????

why is it in life we find time to get most of the things we have to get done each day, but don't squeeze in 5-10 min to do the things we want to??? i have wanted to post to my blog for weeks but haven't...i have wanted to parafin my feet but haven't....i've wanted to take a bath but haven't...i've wanted to put my husbands huge lot of tshirts that have been sitting in a basket and on the floor and on a nightstand and in the papazan chair in my bedroom for over 4 weeks in piles for goodwill or away in the drawers but haven't.....making up my bed with clean sheets.....posting a freeken message on my mom group's web page......why does not doing these things make me feel like a slacker even though i do so much else during the busy day....i've been exercising pretty regularly during the day for my lunch break...i did a spot clean on my house last weekend, picking up and putting away the essential clutter.....i got the items i sold on ebay shipped out to the highest bidder.....i spend time with my son when we get home from work up until he goes to bed.....i put away the dishes and clean up the kitchen most nights.....long story short, why isn't the day longer? why can't it all get done? and if it can't why can't we as women/people let it go? do the things we want to do and some of the things we need to do and let the rest get done when it gets done???? i have a friend who told me awhile back about how everything has a place and how she puts things away everyday...i noticed the other day that this friend has loosened up on her philosophy and i think she is happier for it....not everything has to get done every day - the world will not come to an end if the newspapers or junk mail stay on the table for one extra day....we don't have to feel like slackers when we don't get it all done...it can't be done....

my climbing monkey who loves the water....

why might you ask is my kid sitting on a coffee table???? well because i can't keep his friggin' feet on the floor....he likes to climb up there and sit......and thinks it is quite comical when we tell him to "get down".....

my kid also loves to play in the water
proof is in the pictures
i can slide the chair up to the sink, give him a spoon, a cup and a small flow of water and he will play for a very long time...fights me when it is time to come down...what a silly boy...don't even think about taking the hose out and turning it on around him if you don't plan on giving it to him to play with...and forget about taking it away to turn off the water....be prepared to put him to bed for a nap cause there is a major temper tantrum coming on when you take the hose away....

Perspective....

okay here's the deal....i've been on Jenny Craig for over 7 months and have lost 42lbs...i was kinda disappointed that i hadn't lost more by now...i just looked back and realize now that at 7 months i had lost 46.5bs on weight watchers in 2001...i only lost 8 more pounds in the next 10 months for a total loss of 54.5 lbs on WW...i guess i'm more on track than i thought i was....i was sure i had lost 50 lbs quicker on ww but now i see that i didn't....and am feeling better about my overall losses so far....i guess i just needed some perspective....the longer it takes me to get it off the longer i plan on keeping it off....the slower it comes off the more like i am to keep it off for good....that's my plan anyway....i'm working on getting over blaming myself for getting to be so heavy....accept it and move on is what i am trying to do...i'm finding that forgiveness of ourselves is very hard to achieve....keeping on keeping on is my goal....1lb at a time, week by week, until i'm where i want to be.....this is my goal and i'm going to make it eventually.....