Slacker or just a busy mom????

why is it in life we find time to get most of the things we have to get done each day, but don't squeeze in 5-10 min to do the things we want to??? i have wanted to post to my blog for weeks but haven't...i have wanted to parafin my feet but haven't....i've wanted to take a bath but haven't...i've wanted to put my husbands huge lot of tshirts that have been sitting in a basket and on the floor and on a nightstand and in the papazan chair in my bedroom for over 4 weeks in piles for goodwill or away in the drawers but haven't.....making up my bed with clean sheets.....posting a freeken message on my mom group's web page......why does not doing these things make me feel like a slacker even though i do so much else during the busy day....i've been exercising pretty regularly during the day for my lunch break...i did a spot clean on my house last weekend, picking up and putting away the essential clutter.....i got the items i sold on ebay shipped out to the highest bidder.....i spend time with my son when we get home from work up until he goes to bed.....i put away the dishes and clean up the kitchen most nights.....long story short, why isn't the day longer? why can't it all get done? and if it can't why can't we as women/people let it go? do the things we want to do and some of the things we need to do and let the rest get done when it gets done???? i have a friend who told me awhile back about how everything has a place and how she puts things away everyday...i noticed the other day that this friend has loosened up on her philosophy and i think she is happier for it....not everything has to get done every day - the world will not come to an end if the newspapers or junk mail stay on the table for one extra day....we don't have to feel like slackers when we don't get it all done...it can't be done....

my climbing monkey who loves the water....

why might you ask is my kid sitting on a coffee table???? well because i can't keep his friggin' feet on the floor....he likes to climb up there and sit......and thinks it is quite comical when we tell him to "get down".....

my kid also loves to play in the water
proof is in the pictures
i can slide the chair up to the sink, give him a spoon, a cup and a small flow of water and he will play for a very long time...fights me when it is time to come down...what a silly boy...don't even think about taking the hose out and turning it on around him if you don't plan on giving it to him to play with...and forget about taking it away to turn off the water....be prepared to put him to bed for a nap cause there is a major temper tantrum coming on when you take the hose away....

Perspective....

okay here's the deal....i've been on Jenny Craig for over 7 months and have lost 42lbs...i was kinda disappointed that i hadn't lost more by now...i just looked back and realize now that at 7 months i had lost 46.5bs on weight watchers in 2001...i only lost 8 more pounds in the next 10 months for a total loss of 54.5 lbs on WW...i guess i'm more on track than i thought i was....i was sure i had lost 50 lbs quicker on ww but now i see that i didn't....and am feeling better about my overall losses so far....i guess i just needed some perspective....the longer it takes me to get it off the longer i plan on keeping it off....the slower it comes off the more like i am to keep it off for good....that's my plan anyway....i'm working on getting over blaming myself for getting to be so heavy....accept it and move on is what i am trying to do...i'm finding that forgiveness of ourselves is very hard to achieve....keeping on keeping on is my goal....1lb at a time, week by week, until i'm where i want to be.....this is my goal and i'm going to make it eventually.....