Trying times...

why do we have to go through so many trying times in life in order to enjoy the good stuff?
why does it seem like there are so many more hard times than easy ones?

honestly i feel like some people, in particular me, are just tested too much, beyond what they should be expected to handle....sometimes i just feel like i can not catch a break....i want to be happy and enjoy my life, my kids, my marriage, my friends, my job, my family, but sometimes it seems like there is just too much struggle in the way....it seems like when one thing gets settled and back on even keel, another cart tips over and you have a million more pieces to pick back up before you can get back on level ground again....kids, family, work will be good but then marriage is not...then marriage seems good and the kids and work are causing you grief....or work and kids and friends are good but then marriage sucks....sometimes i just feel like i can not get my head above water and i just don't know what else to do but just float along and take care of what i can and let the other stuff sink.....but then the other stuff could be gone forever at the bottom of a very deep ocean.....lots of pondering today, really want to get out of the rut that i am in and hope that my appt tonight will help, maybe working on myself and learning to accept things i can not change will make me better and help rectify my damaged relationship....just when you think you are better you are tested!!!!!!!!!!!! over and over again - seriously stupid vicious cycle....

Feeling good....

okay so i have been back on track for almost 2 weeks now with my eating being in control....last week i had a good loss and by my scale at home so far this week it looks like i'm on the way to another good loss this week too....soooo, i know i can do this...i have not been exercising, too many other things are getting in the way - my sister and i talked today and were like "really, seriously we can not carve 1 hour out of the 24 in a day to spend on ourselves??" that is just pathetic....sooo with that being said, i am going to commit to getting up early 3 days a week after going to bed at 10pm or earlier and hitting the gym....i can get there and be back home by the time the kids get up or very close there after and there is no reason why mike can't be with them for a bit while i get my thing done....i know the exercise will just advance my weight loss that much quicker and easier...

okay so - 3 days a week to bed by 10 and up the next day by 5 to get to the gym by 530 - i can do this - i must do this...

Nick, the greatest big brother...

no matter what is going on in my son's life with school or behavior or whatever, at this point right now in his life, i know he is a great big brother - he loves his sister and does his damnedest to show it every day....
proof positive below :)

lounging in the backyard - February 23rd

loving at "jackie's" house - May 10th

Palm Beach Zoo - May 26th

playground for father's day - June 15th

mother's day and father's day...

This year i think we did some pretty fun things with the kids on mother's and father's day......

For mother's day we went to lake worth beach in the evening with the kids and i think i would like to make this a tradition on my special day each year....



For father's day we went to the playground in palm beach gardens by my in laws house....



































both days were very fun family days and i look forward to many more of these in the future...things on both mother's and father's day with the kids...

Time management - men versus women!!!

it's funny how people see time differently, well i guess i should just be honest and say men and women

my husband and i continue to have a serious bone of contention between us when it comes to the use of time....he accuses me of thinking things take just mere minutes to complete when in his opinion they actually could take hours while i on the other hand get annoyed by his negative view of how long things can take to get done....we constantly differ on this idea...
i think if you just do something and get it done it can be done quickly where as in MY opinion he takes his time, takes breaks and comes back to finish stuff more leisurely.....

case in point...he has been working on our office upstairs - doing a great job, stripping 20 year old wallpaper, patching and priming the walls, scrapping popcorn off and adding a nice texturized affect to the ceiling.....all very laborous and time consuming work, so i offered while he is away doing his training in Chicago to paint the walls the selected color and he could do the ceiling cutting in up on the ladder when he returns.....

last night i started at 9pm after working all day, dinner, tubs and 2 kids to bed....i was cleaning up by 1005pm and had close to 2/3-3/4 of the walls painted the first coat - SERIOUSLY - 1 hour later, i had accomplished so much - just like i knew i could, just like i always do!!!!! oh and to top it off, i had to interupt my groove to move a 16 foot ladder downstairs to the garage that was parked in the room i was trying to paint - and put a 6 foot ladder under my bed so i could work in the room more easily....

it peeves me and please don't get me wrong, i love mike and appreciate all his hard work and all that he does around the house, but things DO NOT take as long as he thinks they do because soooo many times he drags his ass and doesn't just DO IT!!!!

tonight the plan is as follows, after working all day, dinner, tub and 2 kids to bed - move the computer table and filing cabinet out into the room and finish the first coat on the only part i didn't get to last night - move onto the 2nd coat on the other walls and maybe by the time i'm done the first coat will be dry on the little section i am starting on and i can get that done with the 2nd coat...

then thurs night after jenny craig and nail appt and getting the kids to bed, i'll do the bottom above the baseboard and tape off the carpet to do the baseboards on friday....i should in all actuality be able to paint the entire room less the top edge near the ceiling before he returns on monday so that all he has to do is finish the top and touch up over the 2 spots i put blue on the ceiling....and i know he will appreciate my hard work like i appreciate his....

okay so the point to my rant is that it does just take 20 minutes to do most things :) This is what my husband says i think and he is right, if you just put your mind to it, it can get done in close to 20 minutes....

back on track...

with mike away i'm going to try to catch up on some of my stuff and get back on track....
goals
1. pics of kids off cameras into computer and burned on dvds for safe keeping
2. edit, upload a few to share and print
3. paint the office the nice icey blue we chose
4. eat right, exercise at least 3 days - loss at JC on thurs please
5. blog at least 3 times a week, especially when i have the pics in the computer...
okay so those are my goals....
oh and about nick and starving and keeping the light off at bedtime...i have the 2nd one taken care of, i started last thurs night with the light switched off and told him the bulb was dead and i needed to go to the store to get another one...it's been 4 nights and we haven't had an issue...now i just need to hold out on using that light for a bit and i think we are in the clear.....