New haircut

okay so here is my new hair cut...and of course my beautiful baby doing some finger painting this afternoon....what a doll he is....how lucky am i????

1st reward....

okay well, i got my haircut and foil tonight as my reward for being down 30lbs....it is just at my shoulders and a whole lot lighter (weight wise and color wise).....it's weird getting used to a new haircut....we'll see how well i "style it" tomorrow morning when i am rushing to get out the door, but it's okay because it can also be a wash and go style as well.....

i feel better and am very happy i made the change....

Tired......

how can a mom get less than 6 hours of sleep and be able to function, albeit not very well, throughout the day???????nicholas is cutting his canine teeth and has been a crankass since saturday....he woke up last night and when i put him in the bunkbed with me he tossed and turned and slapped me in the face and poke his fingers up my nose and in my mouth....he was a general pain in the butt...now he is sleeping in our bed with daddy and i am exhausted....he would probably sleep for another 3 hours if i let him...

Playhouse Disney

i'm sooooo happy disney has programming appropriate for my toddler....the wiggles, doodlebops, jojo's circus, charlie and lola, higglytown heros, and all the little minishows are perfect for nicholas....when i click by nickelodeon and cartoon network to get down to 59 (disney) i cringe....the crap they have on the other channels makes me angry....it is completely inappropriate for my kid and i'm glad disney has quality programming on their network....although there are a few things later in the day on disney i don't think are right for nicholas, but luckily i'm a parent who is aware of what is on and plan other activities and turn off the TV so he doesn't have to be exposed to them....

Cold Weather - Gone for now

okay well, i know it wasn't as cold as some places but it was definitely cold here the last week....don't get me wrong - i loved it....i get excited when i hear the weatherman say we have a cold front coming through...i look forward to those days when it feels like a fall day in maine...the air actually gets crisp and cool when we have a cold front...we got down into the mid 30s a couple of night....the days were perfect for a nice afternoon walk without getting sweaty from the crappy florida humidity....i hope we get another cold front coming through again soon

haircut.....

why is it so hard to choose a new hair style???? i decided for my 30 lb loss goal to get a foil and a haircut...my hair is just tooo long, i wear it up in a clip everyday, what is the sense of having it past my shoulders????
why can't i find a picture of a cut that i have had or on someone else that i just would love on me????
i have brought this picture with me in the past to my stylist and i even think she did a variation of this cut on me....i always think a cut will look good on me and then it never looks like the picture....i just want a fun and easy style that doesn't take much time or effort in the morning....hmmmmm how come what is on our head is so much harder to decide about than what we put in our face?

breakfast nook

I'm so excited....we finally bought a breakfast nook for our kitchen...it has 2 spaces under the bench seat where we can put the cloth napkins and other things that need to be stored away...we went to the naked wood furniture store last night to pick it up....we are going to leave it natural with poly or a very light stain with poly....we have a round table and chairs in the corner now but i hate having to pull and push it in and out when we use it every day.....now i just have to wait for my perfectionist husband to finish it in my garage before i can start using it....

62.....

it is 48 degrees outside and 62 degrees in my house here in sunny florida.........what the heck.....we had to turn the heat on this morning to get the chill out of the air and it is taking forever........my poor baby is going to have to wear a onsie, pants and a long sleeve shirt today, plus his sweatshirt....he is a florida boy even though momma and daddy are northern kids.....i love the "cold" florida weather we get in the "winter" but come on, 48 degrees....that is a litte much...we are only 20 degrees warmer than where i grew up in MAINE for heaven sake.....like the cool weather but now i wish the "cold" front would move along and give us some warmer weather for a bit....

On the right track again....

I feel sooooo good...i have been on program since thursday and i feel so good...don't get me wrong, i'm defininetly hungry....but i feel my body getting smaller, maybe it is just my mind making me feel that way, but as long as i keep feeling that way, i'm not going to question it....i've been walking, eating right, and drinking my water....changing back to J as my JC consultant has definitely put me in the right frame of mind...not that i didn't like Julie, i just feel more motivated with J for some reason...i'm hoping for a nice drop this week, maybe i'll reach 30lbs down for thursday...that would keep me on track and keep this train moving....if i lose 2.25 lbs a week until the end of september i could actually be very near my goal...i know there may be some ups or plateaus but i feel better now about getting closer to my final goal than i did before.....

Goals:
down 30 lbs total by Feb 23rd
down 40 lbs total by March 30th
down 50 lbs total by April 27th
down 61 lbs total by May 25th

I would like to be 199 by the end of May 2006 - that is about 2.33lbs a week....let's go, let's go......

Sleeping babies

What is it about a sleeping baby that is so peaceful???? i put nicholas down for a nap today at 1145...by 1152 he was in dreamland....i just laid next to him and watched him sleep for a few minutes before heading downstairs....of course he only ended up sleeping for 25 minutes but ohhhhh welll...when i came back up to lay him back down, we laid together for more than a 1/2 an hour...he finally fell asleep again but for only a few minutes....But while i laid with him, he was sooooo peaceful and looked soooo sweet....i could watch him forever after he falls asleep if i didn't have so many things to do.....this afternoon as we headed home from the zoo he fell asleep in his carseat....i knew he would since he had such a short nap earlier....when we got home i just let him lay on my chest for a while before putting him in his crib....i love the way his breathing changes when he is in a deep sleep....having a child is like owning a piece of heaven...i truly feel blessed to have this opportunity to be a mother....

Walking

okay, so here is a question....why do "we" resist walking as exercise....it is so easy to do, not strenuous at all and makes you feel better about yourself afterwards....today i decided to walk to the bank and then onto Burger King in the opposite direction for a soda to go with my lunch....it took me 40 minutes for the whole trip and i felt so good/proud of myself for making the time....why haven't i done this before...what the hell is 20-40 minutes out of my day...i have a treadmill at home, i have to make the time to walk on it....if i put in a 1/2 hour show that i have taped and walk till the end of it, i could get in 20+ minutes of exercise a day...if i put in an hour long show i could get 40+ minutes without the commercials...what the hell is wrong with me....I COMMIT TO WALKING 20+ MINUTES A DAY FOR AT LEAST 3 DAYS A WEEK FROM THIS DAY FORWARD.....whether i do it inside or outside, i must make the time.....

Beautiful Baby Contest

this is the picture that is sent into Regis and Kelly for their beautiful baby contest....i had a hard time picking a picture of nick because he is so active and we take so many pictures but not many of them turn out good so you can see his face well...i would have prefered a smiling pic, but this one is good too....maybe he will be picked or at least shown on tv....i have to tape the show each day to see....

i know everyone thinks their kid is the most beautiful, but i honestly can not believe we have such a beautiful baby, it really makes me wonder what #2 will look like.....

A new day

okay i have had a decent night's sleep...went to bed late but didn't get woken up by nicholas at all, so i'm ready to start fresh today with a better outlook....on program with jenny foods only...drink lots of water....get in 20 minutes of walking.....i'm ready to get back on track and make this new life change work for me.....as i type this, nicholas is in his crib making grunting/groaning noises.....i love it when he wakes up in a good mood and can occupy himself in his crib for abit while we shower and dress....it soooo makes life easier.....

Our Family - Christmas 2005 

Getting back on track....

okay, well i intentionally skipped jenny craig tonight so that i didn't have to go and have another gain or maintain week....i have not been eating on program for a few weeks and i just can't seem to get back on track....i want to lose the weight, i want to do well and be successful, i just don't feel like i can do it right now for some reason....i must recommit to losing this weight and starting to exercise.....i have received some motivation from 2 good friends who are also "battling the bulge" so to speak and i feel better after "talking" to them both.....
BACK ON TRACK.....I'M READY....I HAVE TO BE....